It started from here and so it shall continue

When I started to blog it was from here and then for the lack of control I moved away from blogspot to wordpress, there I got plenty of readers but not for the right reasons. I don't care if anyone ever sees this post because I would not be linking it up on any of my social media platforms, This could just be for me as is my diary but my handwriting and the ability to access it all the time are stopping me so I will write here for me, and anyone else who happens to pass by this page by accident can also check it out.

I need change, don't we all? So the bits and pieces of advice that I will write here from now on will only be for me and not for anyone else.

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Did you realize the changes that are happening after you started trying to pray on time and even Fajr? Do you see how positive energy just flows through you when you read quran after fajr? You cannot let it go if anything you need to learn to grow, this is just the beginning. You have to change, you need to, aren't you tired of procrastinating the inevitable? Look, I know it would be difficult but we need to try, I am not asking you to revolve your life around religion we all knows thats not possible but what I need you to understand and to implement in your life is the constant state of god consciousness. You have complained a lot, to yourself, to people, to God, at times, but you've got so much going on with you and while you choose to focus on all the wrong things in your life you are missing out on all the right things that are there.

Be Grateful, it is not hard, just one heartfelt prostration each day acknowledging the existence of all the blessings, the ones that you realize of and the ones that you do not, take a deep breath and take it all in, did you really deserve it? no, right? but here you are just given things without ever asking, Thank God. Take out time to be grateful because life is now, now is the perfect time to be thankful, now is the perfect time to be humble, now is the perfect time to stop assuming bad things about people. Now, is the time to forgive and let go, even if you cannot forgive then at least just let it go. It is not worth it, it is draining you out, you bore the burden of it for far too long, this is your time. Be selfish and love yourself by giving yourself a life which is of excellent quality even if that means getting some sort of discipline in your life, even if that means swallowing your ego from time to time. You owe it to yourself.

I know, you hurt from time to time, I understand because I am you but this constant lingering thoughts on the negative aspects of life have just simply GOT to stop. Life isn't perfect and I think you have established that fact a long time ago so lets just get used to it.

There is always a next thing to move on to, it is not the end until it is your end.